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Alumna (Graduated Student)

Four months and a day ago, I graduated college. The lingering global pandemic did put a damper on traditional festivities, but the school managed to hold an in-person event. The president of the school called an assortment of student groups to stand: veterans, first-generation students, honors students, and more. He then called everyone about to receive a degree to stand, said a few words, then left the stage. A slideshow of submitted photos and computer-read names proceeded. I sat with my family and waited through hundreds of them, some familiar, some I'd never seen before, counting Jones' and Smiths' until my smiling photo and mildly witty bio flashed across the jumbotron for a few moments.  A little less than two months later, in early July, I enrolled into graduate school at the same university.  Those classes start up in just two short weeks from this upcoming Monday, yet the reality that my undergraduate experience is over hasn't fully settled in yet.  In part thi...
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Expectare (To Wait)

Well, happy Chocolate-Goes-On-Sale Day y'all.  It's another Valentine-less year for a lot of us, myself included, so we rush to the grocery stores on this day to snag a deal on heart-shaped goodies the vendors are desperate to dispose of. We drown yesterday's loneliness in discounted truffles and other sugary treats, wrapped in pink and red. I've done this year after year, bitterly biting down on whatever cutesy baked good I decided to "treat myself" to, not-so-secretly hoping that maybe someday I'd find someone who'd want to split these sweets with me during the entire Hallmark-sponsored holiday season of Saint Valentine. But there has to be a healthier escape from this cycle of sugar crashes and sentiments gone sour besides finding a "someday someone"... right? My current single status has a fuzzy starting point, depending on your definition of the label. My last official relationship ended in late January 2019, but my coping strategies in ...
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Initium (Beginning)

 New beginnings are always strange to me. Exciting, maybe a little scary, oozing with anticipation of what a new opportunity or circumstance or relationship could hold in its unknown depths.  Starting this blog is one of many new beginnings for me.  Like many others, the year of 2020 was definitely not what I expected it to be, and I've put a lot of expectation into this new year being different. My goals for the year all center around discipline and maturity, as my bachelor's degree draws to a close this semester and I begin to prepare for the transition to grad school. I'm trying to figure out career plans and housing situations and finances and relationship dynamics and a half dozen other nuanced situations going on in my life right now. It's a lot. With so many things up in the air, in the midst of all this uncertainty I see an opportunity: to lay aside my tendencies to panic and to fearfully overanalyze the future, and just trust the One who holds my life in the pa...
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